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How to Find Time to Knit?

This is something I see on Instagram over and over again, and something I’m sure we all face – finding time to sit down and spend quality time with our needles.

When we have jobs, friends, family and other commitments, it can be very difficult to find time to carve out time for us.

Some people find knitting is about restoring their mental balance back to a neutral, or positive state. For others, it’s a continuous feeding of their soul, regardless of a mental health check in or not.

For me, it’s both. I find knitting helps provide control for my anxiety – I have it with me constantly, in my bag or car. Even just knowing that I can reach into my bag and stroke my knitting without anyone else knowing gives me a sense of peace – a grown up version of a comfort blanket. But it also helps to restore my inner peace, balancing my mental health with the constant pressures of the day. I find knitting my source of creativity – putting something beautiful into the world with only two sticks and a piece of string.

But finding time can be hard! It all comes down to priorities for me. I know that I need to be in bed by about 9:30 so that I can wind down and get a good nights sleep. I try to keep my room a sanctuary – cozy blankets, clean floors (that’s a struggle!), big pillows, salt lamps and no tv – only books. I will usually knit for at least 30 minutes, listening to music and relaxing slowly.

A lot of my friends have started to expect that I will always have my knitting with me – and the better I become at it, the more I do it!

That’s why I love days like yesterday – Knit In Public Day! It reminds me to take time and knit, and to celebrate this absolute passion of mine.

 

How about you? How do you make time to knit?

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What’s Your Thing?

I love podcasts, and I tuned in to Crafty Ass Female’s episode, “What’s My Thing” Revisited – their retake on one of their earlier episodes. I’ve been struggling for a while with Imposter Syndrome (see previous post: You Have to be an Imposter to have the Syndrome, Right?) and this really opened my eyes a lot.

My thing is varied, and they all come together to make one whole.

I am a high school teacher – and I adore my job. It’s hard and difficult and there’s days I don’t want to do it, but overall, I can’t imagine doing anything else.

I am a knitter, and that has grown into a knitwear designer. I am so blessed that I have had such a positive reaction so far, and I hope this journey continues to grow.

I am a youth worker. I work with youth at my church, at my school, and I want to bless and grow youth through Wattle&Wool as well.

I really truly think it is all three of these things that collect and combine into my “thing”, and I couldn’t be prouder.

I sometimes worry that I’m too one-sided, or boring, but I then remember the other facets to who I am and I feel encouraged again – I’m sarcastic, I’m caring, I’m quick to judge but open to learn, I’m young and a knitter and I have room for influence.

What’s your thing?

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You have to be an Imposter to have the Syndrome, Right?

Dissent knit 5.5.19
Self-promotion: Knitting my Dissent Cardigan, no matter where I am!

Okay, so I just figured out that I have a case of imposter syndrome. I’ve been seeing posts and emails about this where people I respect and value speak their truth into how they overcome this, or why it shouldn’t matter.

I have second guessed myself so much – some of the reasons why I haven’t posted recently is because I believed that I didn’t have a lot to say, that no one would turn up for me, that I don’t have enough to offer, all that. 

You know what? It’s true!

I don’t have a lot to offer just yet – but I’m just starting, and no one else did at my level either.

I don’t have a lot to say just yet – because I haven’t allowed myself the space to speak.

No one is turning up for me? I have already made some incredible friends through Instagram, through sharing my work, through championing and supporting others. And even if they weren’t there, why should that matter? I need to turn up for myself.

I couldn’t even believe that I had imposter syndrome, because I couldn’t give myself enough grace to believe that I can do what I do.

I need to allow myself to champion myself better – to show up for myself, and promote myself.

In that vein of thought: I’ve just written 3 new designs (the first one, Auseklis, coming out in September 2019!), I’m about to swatch for the fourth, and the freedom I thought would come with writing down my patterns has only grown into the press of further designs rattling in my brain, demanding space and action.

I give myself, and yourself, permission to leave the doubts behind you!

What has been holding you back?